A STORY WRITTEN BY ME!
Once someone told me no matter what people say or think about you the most important thing is that
you now ‘what you are like’, ‘what you are’ and … ‘who you are’! With this and the promise that I would
believe in myself I started a new year, a new school year, a new day. My last year at school as a
student.
I took a fresh start. The first morning of a new school day I woke up early ,took a shower, washed my
long brown hair and put on some make-up! I looked in my closet and put on the new jeans with the red
top, I looked very fine. Then, I took the bus to school and when I arrived a moment of sadness fell over
me. Most people of last year were gone, even my best friends! There were people I had never seen
before.
The teachers were awful. They were hard and strict and one treated us like little children!
I did my best to do my homework and to study for tests, but it was hard. I couldn’t make friends, they
all hated me. I lived alone but I was glad that I had my own studio because living with my parents was
even worse than living alone. They were very strict and I could never go out with friends. So, I decided
to live on my own. It was a very cosy place but I always felt like I didn’t belong there.
Slowly the days moved on and I slowly was falling deeper into a big black hole. I was cutting myself in
my arms ,I drank a lot of alcohol and I smoked like a chimney .
One day I met a boy my age ,who wasn’t in my class .He listened to my problems and talked to me like
we had known each other for years. For the first time in a long time I felt better . I had found someone
to talk to ,to laugh with and to spend my time with when I felt lonely. The weeks past by and friendship
became more than just ‘friendship’. It became true love. That was what I thought .
Around Valentine we had a strong relationship. Till that one special night…
We went to a nice bar with a lot of music and delicious alcohol. I got drunk and all the things that
happened after that are not really clear to me.
The day after that at school he didn’t say ‘hello’ ,he didn’t give me a morning kiss .
He totally ignored me . I was so disappointed ,maybe I had done something wrong, so I tried to go back
in time to remember what had happened that night.
I started with the drinks. I drank 3 Whisky’s and some Bacardi’s .Then we left the bar and went to a
sort of one-night-stand hotel. ONE NIGHT STAND!!! My head started spinning around. I started to think
but it couldn’t be. Would he stay by my side for such a long time and make me happy just to have that
one night ? It was a great night that’s true but I really thought that it was love! I just hated him now , I
couldn’t see him anymore.
That moment was too much and I fell into that deep black hole again.
For months and weeks I didn’t sleep well , I couldn’t eat and I couldn’t study.
I lived like in a thriller that never ended ! It was the worst year of my life. The promise that I made to
myself in the beginning of the year just faded away.
On a cold October evening I went to a cold dark garage somewhere out of town. I couldn’t take all the
pain any longer. I wanted to end all that tragedy in my life. I took a rope and I looked for hours and
hours at that same rope . After a long time I realised it wasn’t a good idea to hang myself and never be
found by anyone . I took a deep breath and returned to my studio . This time I took a real fresh start. I
went to a new school and I made a lot of new friends. And when I was ready to love someone again I
met a really nice guy who I married and had 2 children with.
Now my children already have children of their own and me and my husband are very happy. It’s
strange how something so bad can change into such a beautiful thing.
This story is based on a true story!